How to Put This…

I find myself stuck between people… A girl who I have recently started dating and the girl who has had my heart since day one… I feel like I’m in a constant battle with myself just to keep myself whole. I wanna be happy but, it seems like their both just looking at me as a prize. One is trying harder than the other to be with me, and is willing to wait for me to be able to have a real chance. I don’t know what to do. I hate hurting people, I’d rather put myself through hell than see someone in pain. This sucks. I wish I had the guts to sit down with them and just talk too them about all this and, how I know that I need time to myself… I need to figure out what I’m going to do. I don’t want to make any type of mistakes…. not anymore. WHY COULDN’T SOMEONE CREATE A BOOK ON HOW TO AVOID LOVE?!!!!!